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Howdy?

I often hear people ask "how are you?", to which I'm not sure if they really want to know, or it's just part of their expression. I don't even know if I should give them an honest answer, or just say "I'm good" and let it be done with.

This morning, while I was at the pantry preparing my cereal for breakfast, one of my daily "how are you" greeters came in and asked just that. I winced, not uttering a single word but my expression gave it away. Mostly, I would say "I'm pretty good" - out of a rehearsed reply, but not really reflecting a truthful answer. Of course, a negative response meant further questions.

One of my teammates came by yesterday to give me fruits. She said I look like I needed some cheering up. Another teammate sent me an email today asking how I was because I didn't sound good when he was talking to me. I get reminders like I need to slow down, or that I ought to give myself a break. Their concern keeps me going.

To be honest, I'm really tired, stressed, and sleep deprived. Even when I sleep, I dream of the work I have yet to do. I know, it's quite pathetic, but it can't be avoided, especially when your superiors harrass you everyday to remind you of the things you need to accomplish. It also made me realize me why I don't like women bosses in the first place. They're very demanding, obsessive compulsive, control freaks, and detail oriented.

Do I sound like I'm sourgraping? It's just that I haven't had a woman boss that clicked with me. Oh wait, let me take that back. I did have one - but only for a couple of months - 6 weeks of which I was in Manila for a vacation. Does that count?

So, the next time I'm asked how I am, maybe I just ought to keep my mouth shut, and ask the question back at them.