Single or Married?

I received an email from a friend the other day. I was copied on the email - it wasn't sent to me directly. It read "mga misis....". She later realized that like all those on her list, I'm also a Mrs.

Do I feel like I'm married? I sometimes don't. My routine hasn't changed. My husband is not physically present with me here - at least not yet. I still have the same single friends whom I go out with from time to time. I'm not pregnant nor do we have kids yet.

When I got married last year, I thought my life will drastically change. Ok, don't get me wrong, it did change - though not as drastic as I expected it to. I now consult hubz on financial matters. After all, it's our money - not just mine or his' anymore. Before I buy anything valuable, I'd have to consult him first, sort of ask his permission, and he does the same thing too. I inform him of my plans to go out with friends, and he tells me of his whereabouts as well.

I thought I'd be alienated from my single friends after I tied the knot. The fact is, they need to get used to the idea that I'm now a married woman - with or without my husband by my side. You can say I'm sort of "in between" being single and being married. I can't totally relate to married couples yet because our only challenge is the fact that we're far apart. We don't really argue a lot, nor do I get bothered by his unpleasant habits as we don't live in the same roof anyway. On the other hand, I've outgrown my single life and I sometimes feel I can't relate to my single friends either. I'm not "kilig" seeing handsome men around. After all, I'm really contented with the one I have.

So, am I single or am I married? I think it's just perception. People are just used to seing married couples "together". But they also need to realize that "togetherness" goes beyond the physical. I feel special because I have a husband who loves me dearly - enough to be faithful to me all these years.

In the end, no matter what others think, it's what hubz and I feel that actually counts. Our marriage is more than the wedding ring on our fingers, it's more than the intimacy and each other's physical presence. It's a feeling beyond words... beyond space... beyond distance...